Beto Torres

No plans for the weekend. I think that I'll just waste my time playing Skyrim. Pretty fun game so far; I've settled on being a 'cat-person' with archery as my main source of protection. I've also found ways to 'sneakily' kill off giants...hooray for that!

[private]
I'm finally over Cullen and no longer using alcohol to cope. I've definitely gotten back to the guy I used to be and maybe this whole thing has helped to teach me that I shouldn't get too attached to anyone too fast. It was something that I told myself that I wouldn't do and yet, it still happened. Guess I just let my emotions get the better of me.

Well, no more...time to move forward and just take things with ease.
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This break has been pretty good. It's been calm but fun. I'm definitely looking forward to getting back to work. Can't want to see what plots twists are in store for the second half of the season.

Random note: those Pizza Hut commercials are just evil! I really want to get some pizza right now...at 11pm at night. It's too late for food...:( I will just have to wait till tomorrow. Yes, that sounds like a great plan.

[Private to Lucia]
I was wondering what your Christmas plans were. Were you planning to head home again? If so...do you want to take Santos with you? I'm not saying this because I need time alone but I know that my parents and your parents would like to see him. I'd go home...but...well, my coming out hasn't exactly been handled too well by my mother. She's still not talking to me and rather than agitate her by being there, I'm just going to stay in Portage over the break.

If possible, I'd like to spend time with him before he left...I guess it'd be like his and my Christmas. I know I've been a shitty father lately....but I think I'm over the worst of it. Sorry to put so much on you.
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Looks like it's gonna be a Christmas in Portage this year. It'll be different, that's for sure.

What day is it? I've lost track of the days...

It's hard to keep track of things when I've been drinking so much lately...

[Lucia]
I hate to do this, but I'm gonna need you to just take care of Santos for a bit. I'm not in a place to be responsible right now and I don't want to hire a babysitter. I don't know how long it will be before things get better but I want to know that he's not seeing his father as a complete wreck.
[/Lucia]

Anyone want to meet at the bar?

Nada importanta...

Este niño me va a volver loco!

Ya no se... My kid wants to change his Halloween costume...with less than a week to spare. I'm working all week and just don't know if I'll have time to get him the costume he wants. He wants to be Captain America, now. Not that I disapprove but we spent money for his other one. At least he can wear the other stuff to school I guess...minus that helmet. I shouldn't give him what he wants, but damn it...he's my baby boy. I hate seeing him upset. This kid knows that he's my weakness, I swear.

Wait...I'll just order the costume online and have it delivered. Yes...Amazon is a beautiful thing!

[Cullen]
There's a cast party this weekend. Please tell me that you will be my date. I'm planning to go as dressed as a cowboy. ;)

So, I went out this weekend to the 'big' city and there were people that recognized me and swarmed around me for my autograph. Turns out that the Latino population is pretty big and so most of them knew me from my old stuff that I shot back in Mexico. Although, there were some people that did know I was working on Perfection. Good thing that I didn't have my son with me, I think some of the 'crazier' fans may have tried to make off with him. Haha!

However, it was nice to experience that because I haven't had it happen in a while.

Off topic, I can't decide if I should cut my hair or not: This is me now!
Thoughts on the matter?

Cullen's a bastard! ;)

Worrying me by staying in Canada or at least saying that, then showing up at my doorstep. He actually had me worried but I couldn't be happier that he's not in Canada. Then I don't have to miss him, anymore.

As others have said already, it's good to be back on the job. I was thinking about going home for a bit...see how things stood with my parents but that can always wait. I'm quite happy here.

What the hell happened?

What do I do now? Guess I should just accept it and try my best to carry on. Just wish I got an explanation rather than being left in the dark.

So, my son came home from school today announcing that he wanted to become a singer/actor. I had to ask him why he wanted to be one. His response was because he wanted to be like "Big Time Rush." As I was beginning to feel slightly saddened that I wasn't the reason for his 'dream,' he added..."and because I want to be like you." Even if it felt like an afterthought, it still made me smile.

Now, he wants all this BTR stuff, which means that I'm going to be watching it with him and all that jazz. This kid is gonna get me into some of the weirdest shows, I tell ya. Oh well, maybe I'll start having him go to voice lessons. Yes, he's young but that's the perfect time to start, no?

Mi Vida Es Perfecto

I don't mean to brag or anything like that, but my life has been going pretty good. My son started school and he loves it. Although, he's way too eager in the morning and, sometimes, I hate having to drop him off on days when I'm not working or don't work till later in the day. He's growing up so fast.

My boyfriend and I have been together for just over a month and I like the way things are going with us. Not to mention that he has one of the most beautiful little girls that I've ever seen. Overall, life is going well...and I hope it stay that way. =)

Rules:
Bring up iTunes (or comparable media player), hit random. Quote lyrics from the first 3 songs that come up.

Song #1
( Luxurious - Gwen Stefani )

Song #2
( María - Ricky Martin )

Song #3
( Lala - Ashlee Simpson )

Nothing like spending a day with my son. Just him and I with some video games, snacks, and each other. Although, I can think of something...no, someone that I'd like to have here.

[Private]
I think things might be moving a bit fast between Cullen and I...but I don't really care. I'm not forgetting my responsibilities when I am with him and I am around him a lot, since I've met him. I do think about him a lot and whenever we're together, I can't keep my hands off him.
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( Taken from Cullen )

I had the best date of my life, so far, last night. I took the cutest guy out for dinner at an Italian restaurant. As we enjoyed the food and service that were provided, we spoke about our lives...occupations, families, and pretty much everything that came to mind. Afterward, we went to see "The Change Up." It was a cute movie...but I think the best part was being able to hold my date's hand for most of it. He's great company and I hope that I get the chance to take him on another date.

The night ended with me taking him back to his home...where I gave him a long kiss goodnight. I think it was the best way to end things. I'm certainly finding myself to be in a great mood today.

You know today was a rather good day. Had to work a later shift but it was a good day of shooting. I think I kinda prefer these type of days...sleeping in, working till the evening. I definitely don't have much time to think about much else. Anyway, I think tonight...I'm gonna have to do what I did last night...drinks and socializing.

[Private to Cullen]
Are you free to join me at the bar again?

Ay carajo!

I'm not looking forward to another lonely week. Even after all this time, I still wish that I didn't have to spend every other week away from mi hijo. At least with work, I'm able to get my thoughts on something else...but after work...well, at least I have video games to help distract me. Not to mention the bar is a good place to be social.

( Muy Caliente )